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I simply wish to live in peace with the real Elle. But that will never happen as long as he exist.
Oh wow, that was some tension building when Ludger and Victor started fighting with the battle theme building up in the background.
Seriously, that was like an intense cut scene.
Sorry. I usually try to avoid doing anything like this. But it’s been just those moments where I feel like I’m losing it. I don’t have intentions of earning such sympathy.
Countless of times. I can just stay still in one spot and think for such a long time. I only eat once or twice a day. I don’t know how I’m feeling. It’s not that I’m sad or anything. It’s more like confused with life in general.
It’s really those moments where I wish I could live in my own dream for a whole week. Just be asleep for a very long time and isolate from reality.
I’m thinking over my past. Whether the choices I made were good or not. The mistakes I made and most of all. The words I tend to just spit out without even thinking.
Silly me. I’m eating my own words. A hypocrite. I will admit it. I’m sensitive. I easily get emotional. I’m a nervous wreck. I’m horrible with communications with other people. I have insecurities. Most of the time, I don’t care. I say that then I get hit in the face with the truth is that I care. There are some exceptions I will say. I will not deny. Oh no. I accept it all for a while now.
And I get others telling me I’m lucky. I work. I have a boyfriend. My family must be blessed have me as their blood. And other listed things. I just can’t say thank you with such compliments for reason. Rude. What a bitch. I know. But really. It’s actually because I rarely give compliments to people. I don’t need a praise.
You know. I’m actually afraid of the future. Because I honestly don’t know what I what to do in my life. It scares me to even think about what the future will hold. Next thing I know, the day is already over.
That is all. Just the things that go through my head makes it difficult for me to focus on anything. Video Games, reading a book, tumblr, and roleplaying.
I’m trying. I really am. It’s just difficult.